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Dancing with
the stars
By Ozmo
Piedmont
Guadalajar,
Jalisco – Mexico
I
was a dancer for many years in New York City. Some of my
most memorable experiences happened when dancing, the most
important of which occurred toward the end of my career when
I was still in peak condition. I was at a cross-road in the
process of changing my career from dancing to psychology. I
had let go of my attachment to dreams of stardom and fame,
and continued to dance for many months for the sheer
pleasure of it. This is much like meditation. When we sit
to meditate, we do it without attachment and expectations of
what it will bring or make. When we do our meditation for
the imagined benefits and rewards it will bring, it
diminishes our direct experience in the present. In life
too, while I was attached to fantasies of fame and fortune
in some distant future, then I was in a constant state of
agitation and dissatisfaction with the dance, leading to my
eventual falling away from the practice of dance. But it is
the actual doing of the dance that had its own benefit, as
when Dogen writes “ . . . there is only one thing – to train
hard for this is true enlightenment.”
Like training, dance is enjoyed through the partnering of
body, mind, and heart. When that truly happens, the world
becomes a beautiful work of art.
I had been studying dance for
many years in my teens and early twenties. After attempts
at making a living in the art and entertainment worl, I
became disillusioned. I had been studying ballet at various
academies in New York City, all the time surrounded by
skilled professionals from around the world. I had been far
too concerned comparing my skills with theirs, and feeling
the futility of reaching the goal of perfection. I was on
the verge of giving up my dream of becoming a professional
dancer. Of course, this had created my own gap, creating
opposites of perfection/imperfection, good/bad, and
judgments that haunted my direct experience of dance. That
separation was my own delusion, my own ego that said, “You
are not good enough, you will never reach the goal you seek,
it is not enough to just dance.” While I held on to this
mistaken belief of what my mind was telling me, I was
despondent and dissatisfied with life.
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